Day 128 - Epiphany

No, not the religious meaning.

In more general terms an epiphany can be thought of as a feeling of "clarity", or to mean acquiring a sudden comprehension, a sudden realisation of truth. CLEO had that today. All our thoughts and especially cleo's over the last few months have led us to an acceptance that she will likely not recover the use of her arm and hand. Indeed I have said as much in this blog several times. We were talking about it this morning, and our thought process went along the lines that you cannot improve something if nothing is there to start with. In the case of her leg, there is movement, and there is some control, and therefore with exercise, and hard work, she knew that there could be an improvement made.

Her hand however, refuses to work voluntarily. The important thing here, is the word voluntarily. The hand does work, but only (at the moment) involuntarily: it clasps into a fist, it relaxes, and it is hypersensitive. There is actually nothing wrong with the mechanical function of the hand. What is not there right now is the control of that, the kick start that is needed to send the message from brain to hand.

Now, cleo spends a lot of time thinking, and this afternoon while trying to have a doze, she did just that. She suddenly realised that she does have something in her hand, and that with hard work and effort she can get control of that again! She said it was like she could see the light at the end of what she thought was a never-ending tunnel.

I think that today cleo turned a corner, and maybe the next stage of her Road to Recovery just began.